Lost

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I pushed myself in
but with every push I felt more alone
I pushed myself in
this time stretching my arm afar
if only I could just touch what I yearned for
nobody grabbed my arm from the other side
nobody notices the longing on my face every time

I pushed myself in
I pushed myself into this crowd
a crowd I knew nothing about
but yet I pushed myself in
wishing, wishing for better things in them
wishing to be a better me

I pushed myself in
this time somebody grabbed me
finally! finally I was in;
in a world where glamour was breakfast and pain was dinner
an abyss of frustration, confusion and anger

I pushed myself in
finally I was one of them
I could flaunt what I never had
I could flaunt what I could hardly afford
expensive dresses on my back
the taste of the best wine on my tongue

I pushed myself in
I did
I really believed I could do this
I believed I could survive here
but yet why can't I keep up?
I pushed myself here
now I see
I see that I never belonged here

I pushed myself in
can someone, anyone draw me out?

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